Puella Magi Madoka Magica (2011)

This anime is of the 'magical girl' genre, but unlike Sailor Moon or Cardcaptors or Shugo Chara, it's a bit darker.

For those who may be unfamiliar with this type of story, the magical girl genre involves stories about girls (usually ordinary girl next door type of girls) who are contacted by some magical being, and are given the choice to accept magical powers. They are then obligated to use these powers to combat evil magic already in the world, or to complete some task with their magic.

In this story, the girl's name is Madoka, and she is a sweet, good- hearted girl. She doesn't have anything that distinguishes her from any other girl... in fact, she may be lacking in several areas in comparison. Everything changes for her however, when a new exchange student transfers into her class. The girl stares at Madoka, who oddly enough had had a dream about her the previous night. The girl warns Madoka that if she values her friends and family, she should not make any changes to herself. Madoka of course finds this odd, but disregards it. Later that day, she hears a voice in her head calling out for help. The voice belongs to this cat-like creature, who the new transfer student is apparently trying to kill. Madoka and her friend are then exposed to the hidden world of witches and magical girls. The cat-like creature, named Kyubey, explains that he has the power to grant a chosen girl any one wish in the entire world. But in exchange for that wish, the girl must agree to become a magical girl, and devote her life to hunting down 'witches' or evil spirits that are the cause of many unexplained evils in the world. Madoka and her friend Sayaka are both chosen by Kyubey, and try to learn more about this world, to see if any wish they might make would be worth giving up their freedom, and maybe their lives. However, the transfer student is adamantly against Madoka becoming a magical girl, and does everything in her power to prevent this. Kyubey said that Madoka would be the more powerful magical girl who had ever existed to this point if she were to choose to turn. Is the new girl afraid of her power? Is there anything Madoka would wish for that would compensate for what she might lose? Why is someone as insignificant as Madoka so important in what seems to be the fate of the world?

As I said before, this is a darker manifestation of the magical girl genre. There is a very real possibility of death with every battle the girls may face, and indeed we witness several deaths. A couple, quite significant to the plot. The girls are fighting against these monsters, but they are also fighting against themselves for territory. If a girl kills a witch, she gets to cleanse her source of magic with what is left over from the witch, and if the girl doesn't do this, something bad may happen to her. As the story progresses, we find out that being a magical girl is not at all a fun thing, that a lot of sacrifice and heartbreak and loneliness results from the wish they make. We also learn that there may be more to the contract with Kyubey then we might have been initially told. The show deals with the idea of 'good deeds', and how much of yourself you would be willing to give for the benefit of someone else, without getting anything in return. It makes you wonder, is there anything you would want enough to sacrifice your life for, or at least your livelihood? Just how valuable are the relationships in your life? What would you give to keep them, or let them go? Just how much do you actually care about others? And more interestingly, what do you consider about yourself to be human? Your body?

An interesting, if not somber, show. The animation was interesting as well. The anime was very detailed at some points, but the scenes with the witches played around with animation styles. Another interesting thing about this show is that the main character of this 'magical girl' show, is for the most part, the only main character who is not a magical girl. It re-imagines the genre, and positions it for an older audience, who maybe grew up with the more traditional magical girl shows. It takes a little while to get into, but it brings a new level of complexity to the genre. It's only 12 episodes long and can be seen online.

Welcome To The Dollhouse (1995)

One of the best ways I can think of to describe this movie is to say this is a possible precursor to the romance movies about the frumpy girl with low self-esteem and a 'bad self-image' who believes she's a loser. A story to set up how someone could come to be the mousey, frumpy secretary who loathes her life.  As the title suggests, the film comments on how the 'perfect family' or 'perfect life', such as the kind you might find in a child's dollhouse, is about as close to reality as a doll is to a human girl, and what the terror of trying to make that connection might be like.

The main character of this story is a girl named Dawn Weiner. She's in her first year of middle school, has no friends save one neighbourhood boy a year younger than her, and is savagely bullied at school. Her life is a daily torment. Her locker is tattooed with insults and profanity, she is ignored by almost everyone, except when they want to harass her, and the only person who is continually interested in her is a delinquent bully boy who threatens to rape her.

Her life at home is no better. She is a middle child and is perpetually overshadowed by her perfect, adorable younger sister and her smart and obedient older brother. Silenced in all arenas of her life, she starts quietly acting out; calling her sister some of the names she's called at school, making every interaction with her parents a confrontation, and even causing a small crisis with her sister's safety. All of these come to naught however and just leave Dawn feeling more frustrated and unwanted than ever before.

She tries to sooth the feelings of rejection most often by seeking some way to become socially relevant, which comes in the form of hero-worshiping one of the guys in her brother's garage band. Her brother is a nerd and he and his friends cannot play their instruments very well, but he bribes the most popular kid in school to play with them in exchange for helping him pass him computer science class. Dawn becomes intrigued with him when she finds out he's a bit of a playboy and tries to get close to him, interested in the attention he gives to girls. She even seeks out the bully who threatened to rape her, almost as if acknowledging that abusive attention is better than none at all. The movie ends on a very somber note, displaying Dawn accepting her discontent with hollow docility.

Dawn's struggle of feeling unwanted, unimportant, and bullied increases steadily throughout the film, but her reaction to her situation does not significantly alter as her treatment gets worse. It's almost as if she's come to the decision that they might be right and that any real fight would be a waste of time. No one would be on her side anyway. Everyone else around her seems to have a more secure position in life or a stronger goal or passion for themselves than she does, and she just seems to get left behind and trampled over as a result of not being able to stand up for herself. She can't seem to be as 'perfect' as her siblings, or as popular as the kids at school and is left grasping at straws as she realizes that she doesn't feel that she fits into any social category she knows of, and everyone around her doesn't seem to have the time to deal with her difference. Too timid to assert herself and her importance as an individual, she accepts the oppressive silencing of her individuality by her culture.

This movie is also a story about a gentle, caring girl who slowly changes as she faces the harsh reality that the world is not fair. From Dawn's interaction with others and from the way she carries herself in the beginning of the story, the viewer gets the impression that she's an innocent child that would err on the side of good rather than evil. Her daily harassment at school and invisibility at home slowly changes how she interacts with people however. She stops hanging out with who she usually hangs out with and starts being meaner to others, quietly. She starts seeking out a superficial existence of sexuality (again without much commitment as she has trouble affirming anything about herself) because being real has only brought her pain. She is given many chances to act, and seeks out various people and situations, but never commits herself to a definite course of action. She doesn't fit anywhere in her world. At home, her family is too busy with their own affairs to notice or care about her and at school there is no clique that suits her. The mean kids are too mean, the smart kids are too smart, the cool kids too cool. She's just left floating adrift, a bit of fluff passing from one space to another, never finding a place to settle and solidify.

After watching this, I had a minor onset of anxiety, and will probably not watch it again. We all have fears and insecurities about who we are and how we're perceived, but this girl's life is only rejection and abuse (not severe, but enough to be damaging). She's a quiet girl who doesn't react loudly to neglect, but instead just slowly wilts over time, which is almost a more terrifying prospect.

An uncomfortable film to watch.